Thinking of three clouds preventing me from making my point clear

I was thinking whether my post will win myself in the future as a reader.

When I read back a blog post I wrote at work, I thought that it could be better.
Paragraphs in it were a bit too long and I couldn't get the point of each of them.
In this way I couldn't satisfy myself as a reader in that blog post.

Having said that, a message, even if it is for mysely, require a lot of energy to reflect on what I feel these days.
When I'm tired, things I'm thinking recently get invisible, just like the sun and the sky hide over clouds.

The cloud of tiredness, the cloud of shyness, and the cloud of lack of proficiency are preventing me from make my point clear. These three clouds suddenly appears in my mind, and is making me think that "why don't you make this the title of this post?"

These clouds covering my thoughts are basically my stumbling blocks, but thinking about them sometimes accidentally enrich my post.

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