Typical people feel society and become part of it. I become part of it by anaryzing it and a lot of assistance from supportive people

It looks like to me that most people are able to feel society to adjust it.

I try to analyze society to adjust. I use brain and repetition to adjust to it.

I'm surprised to see 2-years-old kids I see at a local church look like that they are coordinating, although there are not many words. With every verbal and non-verbal behavior they make up society. This ability is what I have been thinking that I have lacked throughout my life so far, ending up failing to a part of society without a lot of assistance. (Actually thanks to a lot of helps, I'm allowed to become a part of society.) Probably the fact that I need a lot of help to make up myself as a part of society, which most people unconsciously are able to do, and many of them are able to do since they are little child.

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