Burst!
I didn't shout out loud. I bore up in terms of sound I make from my mouse.
On a train headed for home 6:00 p.m.
From the office to the station at 5:40 p.m.
The work for the day ended at 5:30 a.m.
It was a great relief and the team was in a good mood.
Although there was some inefficient time, work for the day went pretty well as usual.
No problem in the workplace.
Back to around 6:00 p.m. today still there was problem.
I had hard time with maintaining my mind in shape.
It was as if great and high pitch screaming and shrilling sound had been revolving around my head and my ears. I flipped my palms, then put them together like bowing in front of a grave. My posture was a little bent forward, with my head nodding. sometimes I opened my upper arm but stiffly and rigidly tightened my armpits. I cocked my head two or three times suddenly.
I advanced when I was allowed to get off train to headed for home. It was not a normal walk.
I sidestepped in a couple dozen steps, then jumped forward. I advanced about 370 meters before I managed to turn into normal walk and jog.
Screaming, shrilling and humming noise of mind around my head years was still there, although I didn't really heard from ears as sound and I didn't actually uttered that noise either.
This upset noise is slowly relieving two hours after I arrived home, and writing what I'm feeling now. This is my burst today! Much improved considering the other day years ago, I often actually shouted out loud when I was such a distress. To be honest, I shouted out modestly for a few seconds on the train. I'm sorry for other passengers, and at the same time, now I modestly celebrate a small growth of my self control.
On a train headed for home 6:00 p.m.
From the office to the station at 5:40 p.m.
The work for the day ended at 5:30 a.m.
It was a great relief and the team was in a good mood.
Although there was some inefficient time, work for the day went pretty well as usual.
No problem in the workplace.
Back to around 6:00 p.m. today still there was problem.
I had hard time with maintaining my mind in shape.
It was as if great and high pitch screaming and shrilling sound had been revolving around my head and my ears. I flipped my palms, then put them together like bowing in front of a grave. My posture was a little bent forward, with my head nodding. sometimes I opened my upper arm but stiffly and rigidly tightened my armpits. I cocked my head two or three times suddenly.
I advanced when I was allowed to get off train to headed for home. It was not a normal walk.
I sidestepped in a couple dozen steps, then jumped forward. I advanced about 370 meters before I managed to turn into normal walk and jog.
Screaming, shrilling and humming noise of mind around my head years was still there, although I didn't really heard from ears as sound and I didn't actually uttered that noise either.
This upset noise is slowly relieving two hours after I arrived home, and writing what I'm feeling now. This is my burst today! Much improved considering the other day years ago, I often actually shouted out loud when I was such a distress. To be honest, I shouted out modestly for a few seconds on the train. I'm sorry for other passengers, and at the same time, now I modestly celebrate a small growth of my self control.
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