Packed, Crammed and Unpacked on the Train

It was train starting 5:45 p.m. I was on board 2 minutes before it started.

When I got on it was already clammed. I put my backpack down for more passenger to ride.

The train ran 2 stations. More than 10 passengers newly got on. I had to give up the hand strap I was grabbing to support myself.

It ran 2 stations further. Several passenger was added. A few passengers had gotten off.
I tried to count the number of people on my car of the train.
I couldn't count exactly but there were at least more than 140 people on the car.
Probably there were totally 600 people on the train.

When the train arrived at the station I was to get off, I was really overdriven.
As soon as I was unpacked, I began to walk home. Walking became jogging right away.
I was too overdriven to slow down, and to feel how tired I would become after running.

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