Unexpected joy of a game almost given up

Playing Touhou shooter game is one of my pastimes.
Sometimes it is enough to play through safely with given stock (and extends) of players.
Sometimes I feel like doing score attack.
When I seek a high score, I have to take risky choices.
I'm more likely to lose player stock compared to I'm playing with priority of safety.
When I missed several times and have no possibility to get a high score, I may want to give up the game, but I don't feel like doing it. Today I switched to a safety play to get out of a pinch that I have no player stock at the stage 5 out of 6.
Fortunately there were at least 4 times to increase player stock.
I played carefully and patiently. Finally I made it with 2 player stacks in that game.
High score is one of greatest joy of playing game, but getting out of tough situation is, if not so fantastic as high score, at least as exciting, even more exciting sometimes.

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