A weekend going to mental clinic

This morning I went to mental clinic and met with the doctor.

I spoke what happened this week. Prescription was the same as before.

After that I jogged to station. It was 4.5 kilometers from the clinic to the station.

I run the first 30 minutes, then I could only walk.

I wasn't in shape as good as the month before, when I was fine enough to run through this distance with several rests.

Around the station I shopped shoes, shirt, and suit I wear to work. Some of them had been too worn out to show myself professional.

Shopping business outfit made me feel more independent than ever before. Until recently this kind of shopping was almost dependent on parents. This may give me more vigor for the work next week.

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