Circles, squares, crawing prayer, and humming reaction to worship message

This morning when I arrived at church, I was not in the state to talk to anyone. I couldn't even sit on the chair. I lay myself with the belly on the cushion of the chair, and supported myself with my arms on the floor. I barely prayed in this awkward posture. I drew several circles and squares and lines. I tried to draw my favorite car, but my dizziness didn't even allow me to engage in this distraction. I couldn't say any intelligible language at all at that time, but I barely understood the message the pastor was delivering, and even predicted what he was going to say next, and only could hum and shout "a i u e o". This was meaningless even in Japanese. It's just the first five letters of Japanese alphabets. Fortunately, minutes later, I was a little bit recovered so far as to write somehow intelligible way, although it had several misspells. It was greatly in my own words, and in my own set of vocabulary which barely makes sense for only those who already understanding me my uniqueness in their way. Anyway being able to sharing this information of my unstable and apparently stupid way of behaving and reacting in congregation was really a great practical help for continuing spiritual relationship with God. I wish I were also free from dizziness I feel once in while which make me look not eligible to be social, like people I see in congregation or in a city who apparently are free from this kind of dizziness.