Decaf-myself weekend 2 - Skiing and Canadian beef fair -

Saturday, the second day of decaf-myself weekend was mainly in the skiing area. Usually, I have a cup of cafe au lait, a cup of hot milk with Starbucks VIA, but today I gave up having one. I transferred the JR railway to the subway, the subway to bus. Vending machines of canned beverage including coffees was quite a temptation, and moreover I felt much wearier than usual when I go skiing, probably because of the tiredness from yesterday's jogging. I arrived at the skiing area, but I was so weary that I couldn't enjoy any conversation about skiing with the fellows who also enjoy skiing there. Then I bought a canned coffee, which was the only coffee I had today. I mutely did stretching doubting if I was really going to begin skiing and enjoy it. I somehow enjoyed skiing, but only for 2 hours. It was a beautiful days, but in the mountain it was a little bit windy. After skiing I enjoyed BBQ, for in the skiing area today Canadian beef fair was held, (and going to be held tomorrow). I left the skiing area by bus on 12:45, the same bus as usual, but I didn't have to bother myself with lunch a few hours later than regularly, because I had already had that special menu. After I was back home, I turned down the offer of coffee telling that today I'm abstaining from coffee.

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