Decaf-myself weekend

I feel much better these days. I still feel anxieties from time to time, but less frequently than in the mid of march. A cup of coffee has been indispensable to boost my mood up to the point I start my work with smile. My mental state has now become much stable, so I decided to spend this weekend reducing the amount of caffeine I take daily. Although I took train to the neighboring station to have a brand-new canned black coffee and jogged home from there in the early morning, I ordered a cup of decaf drip coffee at a Starbucks store right before I start my work. In the afternoon, I ordered the same decaf coffee with one-more-coffee discount receipt. I didn't have coffee today any more.
On Saturday I'm planning to go skiing, and before I start skiing I make it a rule to have coffee at most a cup (can) before I start skiing.
I'm thinking that I'll spend this weekend a little bit slower than I wish to be active.

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