Age 31-32 (9) job hunting alone, satisfied with great progress, and burned out

After I got the national certificate for a software engineer, my attitude towards job hunting became a little bit positive and aggressive a little while.

I went to job fairs a few times, and for the first time, I was able to begin conversation with recruiters. I visited several software developers, and Internet carriers.

The mistake I made was I was content with just being able to talk with recruiters, which was a huge progress considering how I had been in the same situation.

I went a few selection processes, but I couldn't show my performance in a test which probably measure our IQ and efficiency of thinking.

I thought doing job hunting activities all by myself was a great progress, but my counselor didn't agree. According to her, I needed to be closely in touch with my supporters. Later, I realized she was right.

After job fairs and selection processes ended without substantial result of any job prospect, I felt totally burn out. All I wanted to be was just being stupid in front of my computer watching video sites and singing along silly songs. I even didn't want to go skiing in spite I had enough time and money enough to go a few times.

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