Recover, slowly
This morning I got a half-day paid off and went to a mental health clinic.
Today I wasn't as bad as I was in the mid of March and I suppose I'm on the way of recovery, but still I spoke slowly.
Until noon I spoke, moved, acted as slow as I wished, and sometimes stopped in front of scenes which drew my eyes. I could afford to stand still quietly and look at things through a window, because I had more than an hour before I start working.
Sendai station was crowded with people at 11am, but more cheerful mood than hurried. Many of people looked like on shopping or sightseeing. A little while after noon street of the city was full of office workers who probably going out for lunch.
The half-day off when I could afford do things slowly as slow as I wished to turned out to be a good opportunity to rest and recover from my mental state in which my mind continually alarms a warning signal, one of which is inner scream inside my head and years and tip of my mouth.
Today I wasn't as bad as I was in the mid of March and I suppose I'm on the way of recovery, but still I spoke slowly.
Until noon I spoke, moved, acted as slow as I wished, and sometimes stopped in front of scenes which drew my eyes. I could afford to stand still quietly and look at things through a window, because I had more than an hour before I start working.
Sendai station was crowded with people at 11am, but more cheerful mood than hurried. Many of people looked like on shopping or sightseeing. A little while after noon street of the city was full of office workers who probably going out for lunch.
The half-day off when I could afford do things slowly as slow as I wished to turned out to be a good opportunity to rest and recover from my mental state in which my mind continually alarms a warning signal, one of which is inner scream inside my head and years and tip of my mouth.
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